Good days, bad days...

I was expecting for this, period of less faith and resistance. I like when I am going through the treatments, but instead when I have this periods without any plans, without treatments, I am going down in my strength to fight the disease. I know this fight is also about this moments, between me and my ghosts. I just need to keep the boat floating. What does not help me to keep calm is the very disturbing sensation in the Liver and in the shoulder, I do not know what is going on there. Hopefully healing :) I am waiting for a call from the hospital to start the injections, it will help me psychologically.