Mikado

Today is one of those days that we need to shake ourselves few times to make sure we are not in a dream, In the morning we dived again in the waters of anxiety and sadness, The doctor unfortunately reserved for me a bomb, the news were not good. The last Gallium scanning showed a new lesion in one gland around the kidneys. The size is not big but it is shuffling all the plans. Apparently the dammed Cancer has recurred. The doctor showed very surprise for the place where it arose, unfortunately I am not cured. It looks that I am starting to play the same game again, It is very hard, I do not have words to explain, But I promised tomorrow I will still wake up and going to bed. The best thing is try to carry on as much normal as possible.

This Tuesday the doctors will gonna discuss my case and next Friday I will be there again to know the decision. But it is very luckily that I will have more chemotherapy, According to the doctor the surgery probably is not the most convenient medical act at the moment, because this Cancer looks like it will keep come back after surgery, So I might have a conservative approach.

I am back to the Mikado game, in the morning I only wanted to kick the peaces apart, but slowly I am preparing to play with more care and more patience as the Mikado demands.

The evening has been hard for all of us, the worst days without any doubt, but I will do my best to get to the top soon. I already did once, so I can do it again, Actually we can do it.