Day of uniforms

The day took us even further in our investment in Health, In natural products to help me to skip this stage, to go back to Zero stage. Special teas and Probiotic products will be the next allies.

Olivia dressed again her nursery costume in a day to go back to the school and myself also dressed my uniform because I needed to take a pictures for the Blue badge. We had a good feedback in the school from Olivia, looks that she is starting to getting on easily with the other kids, slowly she is breaking all the barriers.

Being with babies

Sunday we went to see the sunshine Zosia, the sweet small baby from Rafi and Kasha, She is very beautiful and calm, So made also to relax. She reminds me very much Olivia when she born as well, very little and unprotected. It is great to see the family so happy and together, this will be her best patrimony.

I confess it is getting harder to myself memorise the new Polish names.

Big city

Finally we managed to go to visit Nikoden, It took us more than two hours to get there and believe Adriano and Anetta's house it is still in London. Long journey but worth to see Olivia's cousin, a very sweet baby.

I have been all day feeling bloated belly and headache, I do not know if it was because of eaten too much last night or it is just the radiotherapy and its effects. The bed I think will help us all after such a day.

Flowing

Often I do plans ahead for the day, I do think whether I would like to spend for example more time reading, painting, or even sleeping. But more and more often I am also finding out those ideas as just aims and dreams. If before I would be disciplined in order to achieve these goals, nowadays I do not care at all and I would not feel frustrated for not done anything planned. Important is to enjoy the day and take everything that comes. Olivia and Justyna are priorities and the day is to flow.

In town the weather was a dream, We had our picnic where our food almost got confused with the grass from the park. In the spare time we've been busy with our hobbies, Justyna working in the farm and me and Olivia resting.

Out of the routine

Such a lovely day we had today, It was all about everything but routine. Early morning We traveled to the countryside with Shubhi to have a healing therapy in a Healing Centre, We have been there already for a couple of times but still every time that I am going there I always found so much inspirational the moments, For the place but overall for the surrounds, The view is impossible to describe, from a movie, like all that area around Guildford. I had an intense morning, after the healing therapy I had a meeting with a Cancer group support, I found it all very relax and let me to open more my horizons and to learn a lot of new things, diets, attitudes. This from people that already crossed this path. But, when I came out and I met again the family I was even happier. I was inside for 3 hours but I missed them. I took Olivia to the garden to have our private picnic, to spend the time in the gardens with Olivia and volunteering exhausting all my energies was something that I will never forget, Beeing so friendly and open to me she must know that I need her so much.

Back home I needed to sleep, the happiness made us very tired, Both Olivia and me had a afternoon sleep while Justyna read all the tips for diet that I brought from the Centre. The day has been totally out of routine, but we are very happy.

Little dreams

The International Children's day brought more taste of the Life, Just witnessing and enjoying the life blooming in the front of our eyes must be seen as a gift. In this half term Olivia is busier than ever, Olivia and Justyna had a completely day out with an agenda totally full. With Olivia completely transformed, looking to enjoy and play with friends all the time, firstly she went to a park with our neighbours Noah and Albee, and after came home for lunch, they just touched and go and they were outside again, now after for a Polish neighbours' house also with two kids. The report from Justyna is that Olivia was in the sky with so much play, feeling at home in her friends house.

The last weeks, since she started the nursery Olivia become such a different girl, I do not stop to tell that, because it is really a revolution what is going on inside that brain, I am very happy for that.

Myself, I decided to have a quiet day, Hospital in the morning to take blood tests and after come home to relax and lay down in bed. Today was the last day to have my pills, tomorrow will not have anymore those steroids :) Incredible how this treatment influenced my appetite, I almost cannot relax because of thinking only about food, not only think but also eating. This afternoon I do not remember how much I ate, an authentic crasher machine.

Elasticity

In the morning I was expecting a routine appointment with my GP to organize few checks that my oncologist asked me, but I ended up to discuss by his request what would be my last wishes for my last days, if I would like to speak about that future. I confessed that for a while I did not understand very well what was his point, Only after few answers and seeing that he was not happy I understood the point. But, I apologised him as I have never have given too much thought yet for those days. All this is not a shock, The life and its borders in the last years has expanded a lot, the board is able to take much more, but also not sink. No bad feelings, doctors are mainly professionals, and this is not a critic.

In Afternoon I went back to my normal environment, among friends, John came around and we went to spend some time in a Garden Centre nearby, Great Sunshine to warm up our spirits and to help us to see the light. And in the evening we met Vasco and his parents, It was a great time to enjoy time together, with calm and having a great meal in his Restaurant. Thank you, also to the friends to help this boat going.