Big white

I am finding here the perfect place to know better myself, At home the language still a big barrier and when a visit come I already set up my routine, to run away from long monologues mixed with smiles. I escape to the fireplace, pretending to be in charge of the fire to warm up the house, as if it was a big job and responsibility. Anyway, I always found very peaceful the fire burning and listening the ashes. Olivia has forgotten me, She loves to do things with her grandmother, It is lovely to see how they enjoy each other.

In this way I have a lots of time to me, and to stay with my thoughts that here faraway from London are more positive. All the mornings I go alone for a walk in the field, to stay and feel the vastness of the fields painted in white, It is such a great sensation to stop and just listen our own breath and the cold wind in the face, whispering in the ears to not stay too long.

In the afternoon we went to visit a friend of the family which lives in the former school of Justyna. Olivia did not believe on that.

Cold as in the North Pole

Outside, for the first time the temperatures reached the Positiveness, but inside still very cold, when there is no heaters, in the church this morning we felt cold as never, close to the point of frozen, even the priest who is a Polish missionary was saying that he has been all over the World including North Pole but never found a church so cold as this one. Nevertheless we survived but my feet at home dived in the fireplace to gain again sensitiveness.

In the afternoon I past few hours in the warm of the bed :)

walking on the Moon

The days are now to meet family and friends, Today we had the visit of the same friends that been in London 3 weeks ago plus Michael, which we have not seen for a long time. He is a friend from justyna studies, and he is still someone very special for Justyna. I was tired but it was great to have all here. Michael the king of dancing taught us how to dance few steps, The one I most liked was dancing on the moon .

Outside the temperature is arising and the ice is melting. It is time to take the last shots in the Moon.

Great grand mother's wisdom

It was a day of intense visiting, Olivia enjoyed to spend time and a long walk with her great grand mum through the Polish steppe. It was great to see them. I am more materialistic and I took the most from the table full of Pierogi szagowki. I did contemplate the food but also the trip in the car, It is so lovely to see the white blanket covering the fields and the rabbits and deers in the plains. After still time to Olivia play with Eliza.

Olivia is today out of her, happy because of her grand mother has offered her the first school bag. She uses now all the time.

Winter sports

Plenty of winter sports and also a lot of fun expected us in the Mazurek's retreat. We used a pond in front of Justyna's parents house that is now frozen (alive only about 10 carps under the frozen mirror, according to Justyna's father estimation) to race in bobsleigh and ice skating. We are all very happy with this frozen days, It is also as if we would be frozen in this reality, where there is no hospitals, no early waking ups. It is also true that this resting has been possible with the great love and care of Joana, Justyna's mum.

Polish retreat

After three days, I got back to my civil dress. I took out the pyjamas and went outside for a big adventure in the Polish forest. In fact in the beginning I wanted to do a long walk through the field but because of the cold I was outside just for five minutes. In the evening it was -18 what required a lot of protection to do not become with tan skin.

It has been a very relaxing holidays. Olivia loves to play with her grand mum.

Going to the bear hunt

Tonight I experienced something that I been forbidden for a long time, Just a long and restful sleep. I do not remember a night when I slept for 12 hours in a row as this, plus the time in bed reading and drawing. I can call this already a retreat. Outside is very cold and inside the atmosphere is calm which, helps me to relax and to my brain find the path and the way to the good and simple thoughts and things.

But tomorrow I will gonna look for more adventures than the ones I am finding inside and in bed, as I promised myself and Olivia that we all will go for a walk in the forest, even if I would need to dress up with 3 blankets over me.