Magnolia

Ola

Today I went back to the Healing sanctuary of Harry Edwards where I have been just before the first operation. This time I felt even more an intense experience, The methodology is like reiki, the therapist uses the palm of hands to pass energy to the patient. Today there was a background sound replicating the seaside and she asked me to imagine like if I was in the beach with Olivia and mummy feeling the heat and enjoying the serenity of the landscape, this moments over the couch were so intense that I could not resist and some tears of emotion dropped down through my face, I suppose it was what I needed. Afterwards, I was very calm and with a lot of energy. We all met outside to relax and contemplating the beautiful Eden garden that surrounds the sanctuary and enjoy the paradisiaca view. The Gods open an exception and did not allowed the rain interfere in our day, this in spite of the weather forecasting not be so favorable. In the Eden Garden was great to see so many magnolias in flower, this tree for me represents all the most beautiful of life, its smell, its different colours. And also there close to us were the pine trees, my tree of election, I will never forget the good moments that I pass in my childhood under its fresh shade, listening the twitter of the birds and the song of a cone breaking down from the tree consequence of the heatwave in the forest.

The good time extend through all evening in the shubhi's house, all with Rayne and Taz it was a big laugh.

Arriving in the healing sanctuary, not only the birds open their festival of songs for us but also the rabbits come to give the welcome

I am opening the Eden garden, what will be behind is unbelievable beautiful, such us:

The gorgeous Magnolia

A pine tree giving me a huge
the smells, but not only from the Magnolia

Olivia has a great experience I am sure

I was with a lot of energy, first time I could adventure to have Olivia in my back, the pain has been calm :)

All of us

Also Adriano, the justyna's cousin that arrived today to stay with us

the beautiful shubhi

playing in the ground, time stopped

what a picture, I loved

Decadence

Today our house turned out a yard of a building site, it is not the best time as now I only want to relax, but it was the only option that the landlord gave to us to get ride of the stubborn mould, the undesired host is in the ceiling, The fungous does not present the best environment to the Olivia's small lungs and also in generally for us. So we just need to be patient, it will be only 3 days and can bring even more light and bright to our Spring that never disappeared from this house. Also Justyna's cousin that arrives today and my mum Friday will have a warmer and whither welcome with the newer colours in the ceilings and in the walls.

In the afternoon I tried to abstract from the works and I slept for couple of hours, it is true that my brain did not follow the body and kept awoke and with his own thoughts or as the body called dreams. In this case the brain has been known something that his body is not been told, in the operation forthcoming, the Liver will received a new tubes to link to the digestive system, The most strange of the dream was that tubes would be similar to the ones used as a pipes in the kitchen, the same material without any doubts. I cannot understand the meaning of that dream, I never have been a plumber or whatever :)

Repeated from the dream I decided to invite Olivia for a walk outside, what she replied with a strong shake of her head and a noise that sounded Yes, Before moved outdoors I just went to the toilets to get ready and adjust my look after the nap. What should be a normal and routine act become something that disturbed me, the reason was I found few more gray hair where before I am sure it was black, of course justyna said that it might be because the paint of the house, I could have touched in the wall, but I am convinced is the Decadence. I am passing through the middle age, nothing worst than this inglorious way, feel the strengths are not anymore as it use to be in the twenties. After we reached the top of the hill in a difficult and hard climb, before there will be time to contemplate the view from that high spot the march down hill starts and as everything following the natural law of gravitation the way down is quicker and slowly the corp loses some of its pieces until become corpse in the base.

kisses

Picninc

Before the Summer decides to do a break and going away we anticipated and celebrated it with a picnic in Shubhi's garden, opportunity to see Olivia exploring the wide area and practice her clumsy walk, to relax, to rest, and of course to speak. Listen always the good advises from Shubhi. Shame that Tom was not feeling very well, but I am sure he will be better very soon.

Nice week

I will never be a millionaire

Ola

Today we went to see our friend Veena, we have not met since we went to Poland, thus we went to her house to pass the day with her and Crishna, her daughter. The lunch was delayed, not only because of our late arrival in her house but overall because we decided to do a last minute betting in the Grand National. This is a a horse race that represents a special day for the English people. So we joined the day not with hats or formal dressings but with our casual dressings and we put some stakes in different Horses, Even Olivia had her choice, her horse was of course Ollie Magern and mine for curiosity it was the flaccid Cloudy Lane. He deserves this adjective because the weak animal must fell over only after couple of fences and with that throw my precious two pounds to the rubbish. I found that number (one) that he was wearing was only to attract attentions and few more pounds overall from guys like me that do not understand nothing of this business. Probably not only me is upset with the horse but also the quadruped is angry with me, because the extremely unlucky that I use to have in the gambling or in almost everything :) so when the Horse realised that the Helder has bet on himself he new that his chances were null. Therefore I think the Cloudy Lane deserved my sincere apologises and my promise that next year I will keep away from the game or maybe betting in one of his rival.

Anyway, I think in five horses that we bet only one crossed the goal. Such a disappointment. We really belong to a second division of gamblers. If any other proof I needed that I will never be a millionaire today I had it:)

To forget such a disillusion we moved to table to dry our tears and drown our bad feelings with the same tears. Also in good time Mike, John and Wilfy knock on the door and took us to a lovely walk in the park, un-narrated walk until the Paramount Alexandre Palace, The view over London is sensational. Olivia was in the clouds, could walk and interacting with dogs, pigeons and everything.

One the way it was funny to see a group of children with a stall selling their second hand toys, Olivia bought few gifts from her mates, All were very happy with the trade.

Last word to say thank you to Veena for the wonderful day,

Kisses

Concentration it was the watchword

Willfy

Veena and Oli

Mike , John and the small one

In the Park

Dealing with children

Up the hill to Alexandre Palace

London in our feet

Time flying

The time is now in free fall, unstoppable, and it is a shame because I am scare that I will never feel so good as nowadays. It is contradictory, a person with a strong lesion in its Liver been asking for mercy for a Cancer. In fact I already know that the disease it is not trustful, It is famous for in the beginning behaves with a slow growth, sometimes do not leaving any suspicious for the patient that it is there and suddenly without notify appears, starts to jump and growing and sometimes not giving time for any reply to its mute notification. I wish that after operation I could have the same quality of life as I have today. Anyway, I think I am prepared for the next days, with charged energies, more weight, pills of Olivia has been resulting :)

To celebrate my mood, all day I was fancying to go out tonight, and when I invited girls straight they liked the idea, Thus we went for my Pizza desire. In the restaurant I do not know for which reason we were not very well served, probably for not asking for starters, Anyway, the boss brought one Piscatoria Pizza that we never asked, but the time that takes to produce another one made us do not claim for the one we asked in first place, but in the end we felt very disappointed for at least the guy did not come to apologise for their mistake, only a staff came to explain that pizza it is also good, bla, bla...

When we left the Restaurant I confessed we were slightly upset, but we did the peace with ourselves with something that Justyna mentioned, Anger is poisons, it can rapidly take the good things from inside us, Thus with that in our minds afterwards we did not speak or thought anymore about the Piscatoria Pizza and have lovely walking to home.

Just before we got home, in almost our door we encounter a beautifully gracious Cat, the animal was so sweaty that we exchange few energies and love. We were worried if he was lost but I think we still do not have a life to accommodate another person in the family. Not yet :)

Beginnig of a love story

Ola,

The summer is definitely around with arms and baggage, and knowing that most of this Summer I will be out for other commitments, I am trying to do the most of the Sun before I would go to the Hospital, So, today after lunch I took Oliwia for a walk in the city, In a good time I did it, I enjoyed the day as if also I would be a child, Probably you could not find a man more happy than me stranded through the London roads. Olivia could not hid also her happiness while she felt the fresh air in the face, The walk was a mix of a dancing, because the Sun forced me to a game of constantly jumping to the other side of the road in order to Olivia do not have the strong Sun in her front. The few hours out was responsible to leave me without any calories, excuse to have a fulfill snack to compose my stomach and energies at home. By the way today finally I checked my weight and the news were very good, I put on weight :) I am with 66.5Kg, the same value as I had before the first operation 8 months ago.

If all this was not enough, Oli reserved us another surprise, She started to keep standing up without any support or help, Is true that is only for a seconds but was the beginning.

As you see today I felt the luckiest man in this World, Let me sleep with a big smile.

Kisses my friends.

Am I nobody?

Ola,

In spite of the day April fool's, please believe me, what I will tell you next is all true and nothing is invented, unlike of what you might have read today in the newspapers :)

Finally today we woke up very rested, after holidays tonight we managed to sleep few more hours, Olivia also woke up this morning at decent time. it sounds contradictory but for me even the holidays can make me tired.

Thus, I could tackle an over scheduled day and in the end of the day my body replied surprisingly well, After lunch I went for another acupuncture session, It was a very relaxing hour in the couch, In that hour I can do also meditation, thinking about good things but also about bad things, but here from a good angle if possible. After I went to say bye to Vasco that is going for a few days to Portugal. Later I was planing to see John & Maria but by the time I arrived at home it was already too late. In the evening I confess I was in a very good mood, I wanted to talk to everybody, but I only could phone to some friends. I hope this spirit it is the omen to all the good things that will come after the operation. I was reflecting that the worst about the surgery it might be the week that I will be without see Olivia, it will be hard to do not have her close to soften the pain.

I know, I told you in the beginning that I had a very completed day but I need to reassure your minds that I am ok, I did not go to the demonstration in the city regarding to the G20 meeting. This in spite of be against this Stew cooked by some nations. They keep do not listening other peoples or open the debate to the World that should have also a word in their own lives. This is Colonialism as far as I know, unless they are thinking, We created the shit so We also will sort out the shit. Probably they are waiting for the world become unsustainable, when the unemployed reaches half of the population, At that time am sure not only the miserable people that cannot feed their children but also or specially the richest communities should be very worried.

Bye