Boredom

Finally it come a day that we could enjoy a state of boredom. Good to be sad, just do not know what to do, not feeling any stimulation for what else. Even better if this feeling have been infected all the family. Olivia just wandered through the corridors of home and took a good nap. We felt the tedious around home, Difficult to fill up all the intervals in between the state of inaction, Just a silly movie and walk to the shop. When we woke up from our boredness it was already too late and dark.

Bollywood and masalas movies

I confess after a long life I had today the first experience in the Bollywood and masalas movies, The opportunity to watch a entire movie came in Veena's House, The plot it was not the most elaborated but it was a good fun, For who is not used to this kind of films like me it is necessary to approach it in alternative way, leave on the side our stupid Reason and let us go by the extravagant colours of the Saris, the beautiful faces and of course some patience to be interrupted by grotesque musicals.

Olivia was completely overtaken by the Indian mood, She could not avoid to do her make up and put her best jewellery to charm the friends.

It was really a good time in Veena's house with Chrisna and Rafi & Casha, The food of course Indian was great, But surprisingly today the Indian food was not cooked by Veena but by Justyna. Shamefully was missing the chicken tikka massala.

Cinderella

This story is factual and happened somewhere in Kilburn but could happen at any other place, I am narrating that because the drama acted under my roof. There was a very little girl, wherever she was going always attracted all the smiles among the strangers specially from the males face, The parents never could deal with such a thing, All the attentions were constantly facing the small beauty plebeian and not in her hard workers parents. The embarrassments outside usually frustrated so much the parents, in special her father, that when back home his weak figure father transformed in a stronger man. The battle was unfair, like David and Goalies, but at home was the place where him could exercise his authority as outside nobody respected him. Often her mum and the small one were confined to the domestic work, This tasks would take all her day, from the morning until evening. The time that the girls from her age spent playing with dulls and reading a books our sad one past sewing buttons from her father's suits, to iron the clothes and wishing dishes.

The days were left with little happiness, Sometimes she was going to the playgrounds in order to their parents keeping the facade, The neighbours must think those are a respectable people, Her father was doing the exterior aspect the most important value of his life. The same happened with the matrimonial relation, He did not show the minimum respect for the ladies at home. Outside Olivia, our small heroine was always with a very depth sad semblance, This was something that her father could not contradict

The only place where she loved to go was the forest, There, close with the nature she maintained strong relations with the all the animals and trees, She kept secret her conversations with the dogs, foxes and all the animals in the bush. Even the most strange creatures she straight fall in love and would conquer their hearts

The story of her life would change completely the route when one day she went for a party with the agreement of her mummy but of course with the ignorance of her graceless father. The course took them to the house of an aristocrat family in Hampstead Heath, The time they spent outside was fantastic for Olivia as she never had experienced to be so long in the company of civilized people, She exchanged glances and laughter with everybody, Nevertheless was one very wealthy boy who would marked and touched the Olivia's hearth more strongly, As far as we know his father was a successful broker in the city.

After spent long hours in the feast her mum realised how late it was and by that time her monstrous husband and father should already noticed their miss. She knew that in the evening He wanted her presence at home to complete the dinner and shoot him the insulin. Not few times Mum thought in instead of inject insulin she could added something else to the combination and get rid of Him and then kill their perpetual pain and suffering.

In the rush to home, Olivia could not say good bye, neither Adeus nor Dovisenia to the guests, but above all to the boy that opened her heart and showed her how Life could be beautiful. Not only forgot to say goodbye but also left behind her shoes. But the impression that Olivia left there it was so good, that our small boy could not sleep in the same night and decided to ask to his father to undertake all the possible sacrifices to help him to find our small Olivia.

Thus they run all North of London knocking in each door to ask all the ladies to try to wear the shoe and then check who was the owner of the boy's heart, The enterprise was almost done as finished when after a month they found the small Olivia, The shoes matched exactly her feet. Her happiness was the size of this World as also her mum's. Only the father lived forever in his dreadful cage dying with jealous.

The picture of Helder Gray

Well, unexpectedly I had my portrait offered by a friend of mine, Ryan. I was so glad with the gift in the first moment, There was not a day that I did not spend hours in front of this master piece of Art, All the beauty was there, each single line represented all the splendor and emotions that I past through my short existence and the ambitions for what the life would store for me. I could rest in front of the portrait only with my selfishness hours on the line. I liked to enjoy the feeling of having my soul fulfill. It was marvelous to witness the rare achievement of all the beauty caught by a single pencil. The vanity was another one of my sins when I shown to everyone the inspired work that shows a not less inspiring person. Happy to know the creation of God closest to himself will be now immortalized.

The mutual love in between me and my image in the portrait has started to break when I noticed that image was sometimes working as a reflex of myself, No, not only as a reflex but above all my worst imitation. When I needed his approval and understand in delicate situations he only joked with me, sometimes doing copycat of my movements and even been rude and turn his back to myself. Unforgiving. I am scare to go out and leave him alone with Justyna, We never know his intentions and also if he tells something to her out of context and then ruin my reputation and the marriage. What was my glory is nowadays my nightmare.

I concluded that there are only two ways to deal with the situation, or kill him, putting throw away the screen, but then I will need to explain to Justyna why I do not like it, what can arise more suspicious, Also I do not go in that way because I am frightening of opening another Pandora Box. So the only chance to survive is what I am doing, trying to understand why is he so reluctant with me and my acts. But I learnt that the changes that he is demanding are huge. I must transform myself in another man with less defects, much more pure soul. Big challenge I have in front of me.

Summer fever

Suddenly the days are getting shorter, around 7.00 is already dark night, And also the days are chilly and evenings very cold. There is always something special in the beginning of each season, When it starts the first heavy rain and the windy blowing away the leaves I enjoyed to stay inside and observe and hear, But of course with the continuation soon I will want the Sun back again. Therefore for now we are happy with what we area having.

Although with the Summer is different, because the Sun never settles properly into this stops, It is difficult to get tired with the Summer here. This year I would not have gone to Portugal and again I will not feel the heat, Although they are saying that this year was an average hotter than the rest of all other years, Amazing, We had more 0.7 degrees, Great :)

Freaky baby

Again all the family went in procession to the Hospital, another scanning needed to be done, For this one I was fasting, The concept is injecting a massive dose of sugar in the veins and wait one hour until all the weak and diseased cells soak up all the sugars to get stronger, afterwards the machine should find those cells and take some shoots. Today they did not allow me to read while wanting to do not pressure the arms when laying down, so the time was quit boring. And also when I was inside the CT machine I had a big itching inside the nose, It was tortuous to stay inside the hole without a chance to move and feel that strong itching somewhere in the nasal cavity. Regarding to that area of the human body later in the day I would stroke also the Justyna's nose, She still recovering from the pain. It was in a suddenly movement of my arms and I did not expect to find her face behind me. Sorry for that Love.

After such a starvation the invitation from Veena to go to her house and have a meal it was very welcome, Just in the hurry I would lost my Oyster card. I confess I am keeping looking to find my head. Olivia got already some signs of her father, sometimes very strange, lost and freaky. She behaves as a really Londoner, keeps feet on the seat, having her junk food in the transports, screaming in Public. We need to keep an eye on her.

But as I said the day in Veena and Chrisna's house was very relaxed for all of us, Olivia did not want to sleep only me used that prerogative for an hour. After we watched the strong film A Time for drunken horses. By the end I enjoyed to listen the heavy rain outside until I realised that the heaters inside were already on, After I become depressed, I could smelt the Winter.

Still some pictures from Sunday in Brighton

Sub Human

Today I had another routine exam, Now it was the Gallium scan, First of all it was injected into my body some radiative tracer, in order to afterwards the scanner obtain the disease tissue. The process is quite long, It takes almost one hour to the radiative liquid does the desired effect and be ready to go inside the scanner room, Like a machines house in the cheep. In this time of waiting I lay down in a couch, and slowly I witnessed myself transforming in a lizard without superpowers, The colours were constantly changed and I went almost unnoticeable for the staff. The time was long but I used fruitfully reading the immoralities of The picture of Dorian Gray. For a while I did not wanted to be called and only stayed there and see all the picture.

As all you know we are already mature and senior in this issues of Scans, So nowadays whenever we have any commitment in the hospital we try to do the day as much more pleasant as it possible. Actually I think we are all happy with our visits to the hospital. Of course we only go as a family, they do not leave me to go alone, So we have our breakfast together, after enjoying our trip through London, Sometimes as today Olivia has her sleep. But the best is always after, When I finish my sessions we have always our dream meal outdoors and park when possible and there are energies for that, Today we had a lovely noodles meal and stooped in a book shop in King's Cross, this it was a demand from Olivia.

The good new is tomorrow there is another scanning, the FDG PET. The family will be in the UCL Hospital there again.