Limitless love

Ola,

Sometimes I feel how lucky I am for in a short period of time that I been living in London I can scream loudly, what a lovely friends I have. Shuby is a person that I met in a less than a year ago in my last job, but already before I become sick she showed always so much care and attention regarding to me, and after the Cancer was diagnosed on me she just has been always close to me, Her support it has been difficult to write here, because all the words will not be enough and my English language is not at a level to describe that feelings. She is like a God that gave to my family so much care and love, a person very sensitive to all the emotions and needs of the people, and in our case she become our light. In the beginning when all fall apart, essential my life was running away she presented and learnt to me how to keep the faith. And when nobody wanted to give me a chance because rationally there was no way to escape there was this friend that showed me that there is other ways as the rational to think positive and believe in a good end. So as you can imagine there is no other place where I could feel more safe apart from the Hospital, than in her house. Thus, today all the family moved to Shuby's house to stay all together until my sister flies back to Portugal.

Great week and the best of December. Do not forget that you all still can do 2008 a great year. Is not necessary too much for that.

Solid friendship

Ola,

It is official, we have a house, VIVA. We signed already the contract and will move in next Friday 5th of December. A house that will be open for all friends. It will be good to finally have a permanent place and the Christmas will sound even better in the warmth of our house.

Today we enjoy a lovely day with friends in Vascos' house, just it was a shame that the owner, Vasco was working, not been present in this friends meeting. Thus, the feast was completed with Pajo and Filipa & Luis. Yes, Filipa and Luis gave us the pleasure of their visit, This friends have been since the first time always very close to us, been responsible also to not let me go down in my worst moments. Thank you for your friendship.

Victim of credit crunch

Olá,

Before we met with my sister we went back to the Royal Free Hospital to be removed the patch testes set in my back, and I still need to go next Monday to know the final conclusions, For now it looks that there is only one substance that I may be allergic. But, the doctor will tell me next week. In this trip to Hospital, almost in the time when I was leaving I saw a doctor that was looking for me, but only after he past trough me I realised that he was the Dr Tim Meyer, the doctor responsible for the chemotherapy. I hope he will not be upset with me for not recognised him straight away, I am scare that he now will revenge and set me different drugs in the next chemotherapy that will harm me :) I will try to no stress with that.

Afterwards we went to met with the family. Lovely to seat in a coffee shop and have a tea and chat about everything and nothing, something that only this places invite. The evening we past in House tasting the chicken meat brought by my sister from Portugal. The chicken was brought up in the Algarve in my Godparents Isabel and Arnaldo farm, the taste was not possible to confuse.

To end up the night I did a mistake of turning on the Portuguese Télé, as I become embarrassed and sad with the news not only from India, but also from Portugal. I could not believe to see all the pornography around the BPP - Bank that use to manage the fortunes in Portugal and is setting to receive help from the government, and I can see also the poor Joe Berardo getting some financial help in the future, as the miserable and homeless Madeirense lost so much money with this crisis. I agree with my friend John Gandhy, this looks the best time to start the Revolution.

Lovely weekend

Nursery

It was good to see Daniel for the first time, Who is saying is me Olywka and my parents are feeling the same. And delightful to see my beautiful aunt and uncle also for the first time, I know that my parents they have not seen them for along time, for a year, since their wedding in 8th of December. I remember their voices in the wedding ceremony as I was already inside my mums belly.

Today we did not have too much time to play with each other because our parents were running all day. They needed to go to the Vasco's house where my cuisine Daniel will be staying in London. So I did not have time to speak much with Daniel but he is a strong handsome Latin boy and very friendly.

Bye

Rui attacking the fish

Ola meus amigos,

What a busy day I had, ufff, but I am glad and surprise to feel that I still have some energies left at this time of the night. Normally, I am a man only for half day, after the afternoon the energies runs out and I become almost a veg :) The characteristic that I have for a long time, since I born 36 years ago, but now I fell that increased and become more evident is my loss of memory, either short or long. Actually, this is a feature that I am proud, because I inherited from my father, that is why I would call this the Rui's Syndrome, kind of mental laziness in a brilliant mind.

This fact become even more present now with the chemotherapy underway, In a normal day since the morning, even to shave I need always to ask Justa where is it my razor, where is toothpaste, like if I would not know where to find it. Of course if I would do a bigger effort I should know where to find that things, But fortunately Justyna keeps forgive me, until when, I do not know:)

Today I went to the Royal Free Hospital to try to close a chapter opened in the first operation in August, Back to that time I had a big allergic reaction in my body, with a rush that started in my groynes and spread to all over the body, additionally I could not sleep for a week. Thus, today I went to the Dermatology to do a patch testing to find out what substances I am allergic and to avoid the use of those products in next operations or surgeries. This patch testing in my case consisted in 45 small metal discs, where previous it was applied the substances that I may be allergic, and then attached to my back and secured by a tape. The substances it was some general European substances and also the products in use in any hospital, things like plaster, latex. The patches are left until Friday and then the doctor will observe and monitor the development, and Finally Monday they will look again if there is reaction and will be taken the conclusions. Even, if this is a complex procedure it may not be enough to sorted out my case, Because this test will not see my body's reaction to drugs, as penicillin, tramadol or acreotide, drugs that I toke after the first operation and the Surgeon had suspicious this ones were the causes of that allergy. But fortunately the doctors are looking for that and they will send me to the Immunization department , where they will use other methods to find out about that drugs effect in me.

But now, back to to patch test, I am also happy as now I found an excuse to not take a bath in order to not wet the testes and undermine the operation in course, Poor Justyna and Olivia with their smelly father.

I hope my nephew will not notice my smell. Yes, that is true, tomorrow I will see for the first time my 4 months old nephew, We cannot wait to see him and Olywka even more, she is very excited with the idea of meet the cousin Daniel. It will be good for all of us to see my sister and Paulo. It will be a great week with many things to speak and to share. Shame that also my parents cannot come, it will be next time, I am also happy because I know that my father is putting on weight, it means he is less worried, relaxing more and enjoying the mums food. It was difficult to him to be always away from what was going on here in London.

Something that I will give up now on is to go out to watch football, because always I decide to go to a pub to watch in the télé a match with my team, either Sporting or the Portuguese national team, this teams always lose. And today it was more the same. Me, Pajo, John, Mike and Paul all went to a Portuguese cafe to watch the Sporting against Barcelona, and the result it was again a miserable defeat for my colours.

But this made me stronger :) I am here already through the morning and quite happy :)

See you soon camaradas

Zero size :)

Ola,

We are back to our house in Seven Sisters, We were for two weeks in a friend's house, Jane. It was brilliant the days of rest for all the family. But, also is good to be back to our house and know where to find the things. Shame that our friends Rob & Sandra are with a cold. I hope they will get better soon.

Meanwhile, the business of our new house looks is nearly closed, but lets wait to do not have any bad surprises.

Kisses

Bears in the Arctic

The days still flowing as a snail through to leaves, my condition is still slowly improving, I am starting to be confident and carry Olywka in my arms and spend some of my energies in silly jokes to catch her laugh. For now there is nothing better in my life.

Shame, but today my friend Miriam said good bye to us, she decided to go back to Lisbon, and this was was an excuse to have farewell party in Jane's house. Mike also join our group, I am sure that Miriam even if is sad to leave against her wish enjoyed the evening and felt our warmth and love as I felt. Thank you for our support and do not forget next Monday I am waiting for you in the chemotherapy suite. The party tested my self, with the richness of wine and chocolates over the table that I refused :)

I also had some cuts in my ....hair, today. Pajo applied again his skills of hair dresser and the result it was very satisfactory, I am looking very smart. Only my ears need to have a double protection with the Arctic wave that sat over London.

Ate amanha

Lets go to the next bridge

Ola,

I hope the positive signs that I had today it will become a fact in the next days, The sugars since the morning came to values of one digit, something did not happen since along time ago. And during day I could eat more and the sugars kept looking stable. This is important to my body recover in the way only with sugars in a reasonable and healthy range my organism can absorb the calories in need and do not let me starving of energies and dehydrated of happiness.

Bye

use your illusion

Finally I had some energies to go outside to take some fresh air or better Justyna pushed me out, It was only an hour in the morning but enough to break the routine and feel how much cold was outdoors and wish to be back home quick. The sugars are not giving mercy as the pressure in the abdomen. I hope next week the things will improve as in the last sessions.

But, this time the pos chemo is passing so slowly, almost if it was not moving, testing my calm.

By the way is time to go to bed :)

Kisses

Road for the new flat

In fact the night it was short for me not because of the small Oly, but because of me and my jet lag, duet to the chemotherapy. Thus, at 3.00 AM I was already woke and needing to entertain myself reading until the breakfast time arrived. Since I woke I dreamt so much about the sausages I had in the fridge and a lovely scramble eggs in the table. This it was basically all the morning. After the breakfast I rest the hours left.

The search for new flat still need to carry on as the one we were looking did not work out.

Afterwards we had a visit of Veena what was a fantastic way to say hello to the weekend.

Beijos

London also stops

I am sure the life is still going very busy for most of you. But, here in the house the life has almost stooped, Today me and Oliwka decided to sleep almost all day and mum also rested, I was glad to see Justyna reading all afternoon, Taking back her old passion. Probably the nightmare will be in the night, as Oly now she skips the naps in the night for day. I will tell you tomorrow.

Kisses

Our star

The day deserved to be separated in two halves, until afternoon it was a calm day, sleeping almost all time, and enjoy some intervals with my special ones, Oliwka and Justa.

Only when afternoon arrived the almost night brought us the highest point of the day. We went to witnessed a beautiful project from the responsibility of my friend Veena. She set a group of 31 dads singing in 21 languages songs for kids, So as you can imagine with such a mix of different backgrounds the out come it was a very beautiful party and also a CD to proof it. This CD it was launched today and has my voice to sing a Portuguese song, Jardim da Celeste.

I was invited for this event in June, just when I become sick, and in that time I remember to do not be sure if I could do it with all the news I have been told me in the UCL Hospital, but in reality I was present today and I had a really good time :)

Love to every one and special big kiss to Veena

Waiting for the next move

Ola,

As usual the first day after the chemotherapy I am living the same sensations of the others first days. A very short sleep in the night, a couple of hours, but I compensated with all afternoon in the bed. Another familiar reaction is the sugars levels going up. But at least the appetite it still enough to allow me to get a reasonable amount of calories.

Today I get clarified about what will happen next, I received a letter by post from the Royal Free Hospital booking the CT scan for 17th of December, this means that I should have at least one more chemotherapy session in three weeks. And only after the scanning the doctors will take a decision, This would be already close to Christmas, probably the surgeon will transmit me the decision in an appointment that I have with him at 23rd of December.

This December it seems a very busy time, we are moving house, we are dealing with a crucial time regarding with my healthy issues, and of course we want to live some of the Christmas spirit even more now with the gift of Oliwka.

Kisses

Chemotherapy-Session 3

Tonight after the long day and arriving home I confess in spite of the confusion and tiredness there is a smell of mission accomplished, When I was set for this chemotherapy I wished this day and now we are here.

Now is waiting in two weeks for the scanning and then for the interpretations of the doctors. I will try to do what I should, I always been trying to follow the some philosophy in my life, Nothing can be taken as the last or most important thing in the world. Sometimes an unexpected decision make us progress in different track and then finding some other virtues, and now is the same, it does not help to thing as the next appointment will mean everything or nothing.

The session it was long as usual, the nurses needed to stay longer just because of me, and today Justyna cannot come with me because Oliwka was with a cold, so Miriam join me in this marathon of 10 hours. When we are inside the Chemotherapy ward the world looks like so different as I knew it. Here the Cancer is a dictator, The conversations by the people is like, "the person is beside me its tumour decreased size, she is so happy", "I have been sick all last week" and overall the faces and body of the customers in someway are marked by the fight. Today since I started the infusion of the drugs I felt agonised, only at home I tasted the real taste of the food with tasteful dinner cooked by Justa.

Well, by now I am dreaming with bed, because yesterday I barely slept, our Olivia could not sleep.

Hugs and kisses.

Fan club

Hello,

Sunday was an open day to our friends, This is what I need at the moment, I fear to feel alone, probably even more than the death. In the Morning we had a very fruity and healthy breakfast with John & Wilf, Rob and Sandra. It was good to share some English jokes, though my brain found difficult to follow any joke nowadays. Lunch it was our friend Mike, that gave us the pleasure of his company, I am with fingers cross to see Mike surviving the Financial crises, in the way he is working in an investment bank. Finally to end up the day was Miriam and Pajo that visited us and was great to taste the Pajo's culinary skills.

Meanwhile I am already feeling anxious for tomorrow and another chemotherapy session in the Royal free Hospital. It is a silly thought but I hope all this it would be worth, The last days I have been worried with a persistent pain in my abdomen, but I suppose is part of the healing of the last operation in conjugation with the chemotherapy on the way. Also my dreams in the night are reflecting all the worst perceptions, it is painful to wake up and remember the dreams that come along, in the process of dreaming I am often screaming or using direct action against the closest pillow.

In other plan, I want to complain to my new condition. Since I start to write this blog I become so famous, that now wherever I go I cannot pass in the streets without been recognised. This group of fans is the last occurrence.

Lovely day

Looking for peace inside

After a bad day I am happy to announce a good day, In the Morning we left to meet Shuby that would take all us to the Amaravati Buddhist Monastery in Great Gaddesden in the Hertfordshire county. The link for who is interested is bellow:

http://www.amaravati.org/abmnew/index.php/home/index

The monk in charge for this work shop was Mr Bhikkhu Aloka. It was a long but a peaceful exercise, for two hours all of us, around 100, were in meditation on the floor indoors and just trying to see whatever it comes to our mind, if it is pain that you feel just observe it, if it is any sound just catch it, if is a smell just smelling. The process of mediation can imply just think about some specific thing or just do a more open and free process and then observe whatever is coming to your head, skipping from one thought to another one. Take the thoughts as it comes, no stress if the thought are bad. Even the silence is listenable and enjoyable, he said that the sound of the silence represents the working conscious.

Afterwards was another half an hour outside, doing small walks and trying to have an introspective attitude, here is more complicated, as the eyes are standing open. It was a funny sensation to see all the students and monks wandering in the large park outside.

As the Monk said now we all need to practise at home, and next Saturday I will be back again.

Lovely to finish my day listening some old songs in the company of my friend John, that today is overnighting in Jane's place as us.

Finish with the idea that the only thing more important in our life is not the love but the time.

Slowing down

Ola,

I cannot wait for the end of this day, as it was so long physically and mentality. I have had already much better days than today, but this is part of the agreement, we always have this bad moments in between some others more bright. The accumulation of stress started in the early morning, I toke my shower with cold water, just when I was leaving the shower the hot water decided to come, too late. With that waste of time I need to run to catch the train to the hospital. Anyway, I was on time to have my blood test at 9.00am and appointment with the oncologist at 9.30.

The doctor from the Dr Tim Meyr team said that the results from the blood tests that I did in the morning were already in her computer, and showed that all organs are working well in spite of the chemo, so I will go for the next session this Monday. The only thing that disturbed me a bit it was when she was speaking it did not sound that she believed in an operation in a short term. Anyway, she said that I will do in two weeks a scanning to asses how it goes the metastases in the Liver. This made me coming back more to the Earth, and think I need to have my mind open for anything that comes in the next weeks.

After that I had another call to my phone from my GP, asking me to go there to speak about palliative care. This brought me even more down, But Justyna is right I should not be worried about that, because there is no way that they can know more than me about my condition, and so far the doctors did not close me the doors.

Probably because of all this stress my sugars in the blood become very very high, and I was irretrievably tired and bitter for all day. But not broken. Tomorrow, I am sure I will have more energies.

But the day has not finished yet, In the beginning of the afternoon I had another appointment in Hospital with a doctor and nurse from the diabetes and a nurse from the dietitian team. It was a long meeting but profitable. they explained me some matters that I was not aware and the also the regularity of my injection will be changed as well to address my loss of weight.

Kisses

First teeth

Ola,

It is not to bad this sensation of hermit, essential when outside is cold and wet, I can read all the newspapers and magazines that has been accumulated beside my bed and leave the rest to Olivia to read and scratch. As you can see for the picture she is always in the company of the books.

This evening it was registered for a big scream of Olivia's Mum, I was surprised what did happen and Justyna completely out of her, in a hysteric tone told us, "I can see the first Olivia's teeth"

So, after also I was exited with this landmark. What is the next surprise that our Olivia will reserve for us?

Tomorrow is a very busy day in the Hospital, I have an appointments with the Oncologist in the morning and in the afternoon I will see the doctor of the Endocrinology team. The last one it will be the first time I will see them, I cannot wait :)

Bye

Polish beauty

I am trying to take advantage of the last week before another chemotherapy session arrived, anyway the countdown has already started in my head, it is a shame when I start to feel better, less tired, is when the next battery of chemicals is duet. But, no complains for who has done already all this way. Against all odds, we are here and almost with the life back, I am sure if the book makers in London had open a bet for my life, by now all the bookies would be losing money and probably I would be rich, Is almost six months since the doctors diagnosed the cancer, and also half year was their first and fortunately wrongly prediction for my live expectation.

If I have been OK, Justyna today was tired with all the stress and pressure she has above her shoulders, I need sometimes to focus more one her issues, and forget my disease. My problem turns me sometimes in somehow blind, like if would be the only person with problems. Even if Justyna never complains, what sometimes that silence is the problem, she deserves all my attention.

We been enjoying the winter days in Jane's house, the days looked so long now, and the nights even bigger. Big hug to Richard and Derick and have a peaceful trip to India.

And love for everyone

Smiles for now

Ola,

Finally I went to the Royal Free Hospital today to clarify about a small nodule it had grown in my beautiful scare, I thought it could be some clamp left inside from the operation, but the doctor from the Mr Fusai team told me to do not worry, as what I feel under the skin is just the stitch inside the body that sometimes takes longer to dissolve, the fact that I am under chemotherapy also does not help all the healing process. With the trip I had also opportunity to speak with doctor Fusai and he told me that I look great and he will wait to see me in December to decide the next stage. Meanwhile another doctor come around and again remind us how lucky I am, after such a complicated situation I look very well and the perspectives are good.

Evening we come to my friend Jane's house to have a evening in a different environment, just the fact of changing also brings fresh air, I am enjoying the quiet evening, only with computer and book.

Big kiss

Assuncao's bakery

A busy day that toke us firstly to Janes' house to have a great and majestic breakfast, of course I could not resist to the jams, chocolate croissants or wild fruits. This brought me back some memories of breakfasts in Portugal in parents house, They use to cook the best bread in the world what turned the meals, special the breakfast a unique experience.

But today with the lovely but sugary breakfast of course I needed to pay a price with the sugars in the blood, but once in a while I am sure I will be forbidden. The visit also was with the objective to say good bye to Jane as she goes in work to Chicago for a couple of weeks.

Afternoon we needed to run to view a house to rent, the price is OK but the size probably too small, so the decision it was not made yet, We will sleep on that.

Men of the house

Ola,

This chemotherapy session has been taking me more down to the bed, For several days I only go out for a short time, I also have been with some pain in my abdomen, feeling the food struggling to do all the way down, even with help of the teas. Therefore, it is the women who leads the house and are the firefighters to extinguish all the small fires that tend to appear. Justyna is in the antipodes of that woman I met two years ago. That time she was very shy, difficultly she could decide anything by herself, very dependent from me, and immersed in lack of self believe. It is amazing to see how she behaves nowadays, she decides everything, she got all the initiatives, For example she is calling and is going to see the flats available to rent. And the small Olivia has already marked her personality, and then her options :)

Nice week

Run for a life

So glad I feel today, Even more glad because the reason to be glad is because of myself. I went to a park close to home with my friends John & Maria and kids to relax and the small ones to play footy, But, the pleasure that took us to this green area was broken straight after our arriving by a barbaric situation. A big dog that was walking with is owner decided to catch another dog, small one, by its neck. When I saw that I could not believe, and the situation was enduring already for a couple of minutes, the owner of the aggressor dog was trying to pulling him away but without success and the owner of the victim was screaming and her daughter in shock. But of course I was around, and in a flash I realise it would be another case to be sorted by Helder, and I run intrepid to the spot provided with my arm, an umbrella. The run took me more time than some months ago would take me, but anyway enough to reach the place of the fight, or better of the subjugation of one dog by another one, and in a gesture of goodness with the weakest dog, I started to kick the bad dog's head with my umbrella transformed in a stick, This owner was surprise and upset with my attitude, even tried to stop me, but in the end after the last and my strongest struck it let the bad release the good one. The bad dog kept looking for confrontation, only the owner with the lead could dominate the beast. In the other hand the good dog looked in shook, was at least a live for sure, and the lady owner blessed me for my courage act. Definitely, the lost of my old and sentimental umbrella was worth with the dogs life.

Different words for my friend Ian & Renne that are celebrating Ian's birthday with a romantic trip to Paris, humm. Have a good time. And also a big kiss to Portugal for all the girls that are in an important friends meeting.

As you can see the title today match the title of my blog, Please take your conclusions :)

Big Sabbath

Weekend again, in front of my house I can see already the preparations for the big Saturday, the Sabbath, the religious day for the Jewish. In the area where I live, Stanford Hill, is famous for its big orthodox Jewish community. Although, it is a very close society, difficult even to share any eye contact with them, I cannot avoid to feel very respect and sympathetic for them. They normally have a numerous families, usually over five kids. From my window sometimes I spend so long time just observing the rituals of this traditional Jewish family. The kids always look so lovely, very well educated and they are a source of inspiration for me when I see them playing with each other. They always use games very old fashion, like big cars made from wood, strings, what I think it should be demanded from the Torah. Also, tomorrow morning I can see the kids outside reading energetically the Torah book.

Not only the kids are very sweet to parents but the parents shown always very tender with the kids and wherever they going always bring the kids along, like if they were permanently training the kids to be like them and therefore adults as soon as possible. Nevertheless, there are some issues like preponderance of the male that I am not sure if I agree.

Good bless all the religions

Home on the sight

Hello,

Today we had another issue that moved forward, The Council finally decided about our claim for house. Though the decision it was not in our favor, at least now we know that we need to move on and look for house by our self. Probably we will rent a house and only after apply for housing benefit, attending to our low incomes it should be given. Justyna started already the task of looking in the Net for our Palace, also Castles are in our cogitations.

Sao Martinho visited us, and I cooked some chestnuts in the oven to remind this old party that is part of my imaginary. Often I went to the queue in the Cellar close to home to buy the Agua Pé (new wine) that was part of the table in this day, as the chestnuts and the sweet potato.

Ate amanaha

It is not case for that!

Hello,

So today, If it was still necessary I had the confirmation that the panorama I had few months ago have changed dramatically, and now we have right to believe in a good end. This send us back five months ago, That time they diagnosed me with this nasty tumor in the Pancreas spread to the Liver, and when I had to face the terrible news, the day after I started to be accompanied by the palliative and pain management team. This reflected their idea that the only thing they could interfere it was in the palliative care, to avoid me to have needless pains and to keep my moral up as possible. But I need to confess, probably because of some preconcepts I had in my mind I was terrified when the lovely and very professional doctor from the palliative team in the UCLH came to visit me for the first time. Even, Afterwards when I come home I kept having the regular visit or phone calls from a nurse from the Macmillan, an organization that supports people with Cancer.

But, after five months of fight, the nurse come home again, not only to share a cup of tea with us but overall to give me a news that brings more confidence to our home, According to the nurse she sees a fit man with a serious clinic program that aim to cure from the cancer, Then now on and for now, she does not see reason to follow so close my case.

Good night lovely people

Life in the kitchen

Ola,

A special event is marking the day, Yes, the elections in the USA, I hope this day will be a starting point that will bring new fresh air to our world. At least the expectations here in my home are big. To anticipate the new time of more fraternity that I hope Obama will bring with his term we are trying to cook more veg food than ever :) In this type of food Justyna is the Queen, I only can play my cards when fish is called to be cooked. The bacalhau that now I have in stock it will be my precious substance to practice my alchemist qualities.

The breakfast is our most important meal and I am back to the job in the kitchen as you see me pictured yesterday morning.

Kisses

Fun back to my dictionary

Ola,

I know that you missed the post in the morning :) Sorry, it was a very busy weekend, Probably we did not have a such intense and happy days for a long time. So, I decided to leave this lines for another time. The three days looked more as a unique long day. Surprisingly I felt with a lots of energy and good mood to enjoy the presence of my friends. Only Saturday I could not manage to keep in form all day. I was tired after lunch but I recovered in the evening. But Sunday, the sugars went back to the same levels as before the chemotherapy session and the sickness vanished, then I was free to enjoy a big set of pizzas with all the friends during lunch time. Pedro and Marisa join Patricia, Miguel, Daniela and Ruca and came around to Angel to spend the lunch with us. Even if London was freezing and very wet in the evening we could stay in Jane's house just cooking and enjoying a dinner in the company of Pedro and Celia. I think that the fact that I felt so happy and good regarding to the diabetes and cancer parameters, it must have an explanation, the love that the friends keep emulating me. Justyna told me that she has not seem so well for a long time.

I have a strong hope that the next two weeks, before the next session, I will be able to have a chance to have a good time and relax as this days.

kisses